A Note On Paywalls
A fun fact: Other than when it was part of my job description and therefore I was being paid for it, I have never monetized my writing, my social media, or basically anything else online. So this is weird for me!
That being said there are some thing I’m not ready to put out there for just anyone. I live for Close Friends and Friends Only. I love being able to curate specifically who is allowed to know something. People have called me “hard to read” and honestly? Good. I’m fine with that. Being able to decide who gets to know what about me feels like when I was in middle school and my friends and I shared a notebook we would pass between us in the halls at class. I can gossip, I can share, but it’s a contained share. A share on my terms. A share I have the say in. A share I can fully control.
If it wasn’t obvious, I have a complicated relationship with, well, sharing information about myself or anything I deem to be personal. But at the same time, writing about whatever I’m working through is one of the most natural things for me. And idk, not to toot my own horn about it but I’m a good writer. I may be the actual world’s worst driver, but I can write an essay. Beep beep, I guess.
Anyway I won’t soliloquy about this for too long given that behind every paywalled essay is an even longer piece of work, but the main way for me to contain who is granted access to the thoughts that are still a little too raw for me to feel fine about just anyone having the ability to consume is to put them behind this $5 paywall. And that’s the minimum amount—I swear I tried to make it $2. But I genuinely am not doing this for the money so I’m figuring out other ways to let people read them. Within my say, of course.
Currently if you subscribe to my content for the $5 fee, you’ll be automatically added to a list of people who will have instantaneous access to anything I paywall. If you want to read it but feel conflicted about passing up on a Lincoln each month, that is more than fair! It’s a recession and that’s a solid bagel! So all I ask is that for each of the essays I publish that you would like access to is you give me, in exchange, one morsel of gossip or tea. That seems fair.
If you’ve already subscribed fret not, you’re already on the list. And if you’d like you can preemptively send gossip here.
Keep in mind if you are not someone I would trust with layers of vulnerability or to not make it weird, I’m not going to let you read any of these. Even if you offer me cash I’ll refund you, enough said.
Maybe these essays will be public someday, maybe not. But if you find yourself being one of the people reading them just know I genuinely appreciate you and do not take you caring enough about what my fucked up little brain wants to say lightly in the slightest. It means more to me than I’d ever be able to convey—paywalled or otherwise.
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